Doctors Appointment

I had a doctors appointment today, just for my normal monthly check up. Now I'm going to be going every two weeks because I'm getting farther along. I'm 30 weeks along, I'm almost 8 months! I'm so excited, I can't wait til she is here. Today I had to get a flu shot which was not painful at all. But the again I'm not afraid of needles and I'm good with pain. I got weighed as usual. I've gained 3 more pounds! So all together I've gained 19 pounds. To me that seems like a lot, but she said I'm right on point with my weight gain and that 6-8 pounds is just fluids. Gosh I feel so fat, but it's okay. Gaining all this weight is worth it. Then before I left she gave me information about child birthing classes. I'm thinking about going but I know my boyfriend isn't going to want to go. I guess it won't hurt to ask him and talk to him about it. Luckily the classes are free with my medical, otherwise if I wanted to take them I would have to pay $150. I'm so excited about this whole pregnancy. I don't know how many times I'm going to say that! haha

Breastfeeding.

I really don't know how I feel about it. I still haven't decided what I'm going to do, it's hard to decide. Some people say that breastfeeding is healthier for the baby and they don't get sick as often as bottle fed babies do. I know for a fact that isn't true. My mom breastfed my sister and she got sick for the first time when she was just a couple weeks old and has had ear infections all her life. She bottle fed me and I didn't get sick til I was about two years old and I still rarely ever get sick. I also know a couple other people who breastfed one of there kids and not the others and they were just as healthy or healthier. I have people telling me that if I don't breast feed its okay and others telling me that if I don't its not going to be good for the baby. Then I have the people at WIC who are basically pressuring me telling me that I need to breastfeed, and basically saying I'm going to be a bad mom if I don't. They are so rude. What makes me mad is that most of the people there don't even had kids so what do they know?! Just because some chooses to bottle feed their baby don't mean they are a bad parent. I have this feeling though, like I should breast feed her but then again I don't want to. Shortly after I have her I'm going to go back to school so during the day who is going to feed her? I wouldn't have much time to pump so it's like what do I do? I also sometime in the future want to get a job so I wouldn't be there to breastfeed her either. It would be much easier to use formula because whoever is watching her can feed her and I won't have to pump. When I think about it I feel bad that I probably will decide to use formula but my mom says not to feel bad because it will be a lot easier and a lot of moms choose to use formula and don't listen to anything WIC said. But AH! I just don't know. This really is a hard decision for me. I really don't have the much more time to decide though. I only have about 2 months left til she is here!

It's not always fun!

Being pregnant isn't always fun. I'm always tired and my back hurts. Some days my whole body is sore. I get leg cramps, I always have to pee! Some days my stomach gets upset by the smell of foods and even looking at certain foods makes my stomach hurt. I feel lucky though, some people have it way worse when they are pregnant. I only had morning sickness for about a week when I was three months along. The doctor even says I'm lucky. The doctor also says I'm doing good with my weight. I'm seven months and have only gained sixteen pounds, to me that is a lot! But as long as the baby is healthy when she is here I don't mind. I feel bad for my boyfriend, I'm so moody these days. I snap at him for no reason all the time. He always tells me I'm mean but he says he has to deal with it! HAHA. I try not to be but I can't help it. It seems like I've been pregnant for so long, I just want her here. The doctor thinks she will come a couple weeks early. So I have about 8-10 weeks left! I'm so excited(: They say she is healthy so far. The only thing is that need to eat better. The doctor and the book say different things about eating. My doctor says that it's okay for me to eat something that isn't healthy everyday and I can drink up to two cans of soda a day as long as I drink plenty of water. The book says that it's bad to drink soda and you need to eat healthy throughout your pregnancy. The book also says that you can eat fish while pregnant but my doctor says no. Which is weird, everyone has a different opinion so what is really healthy for my baby? I think I will just listen to what my doctor tells me.

First Appointments!

I think after I had my first OB appointment was when it finally hit me. I was like "Wow I'm really pregnant, I'm having a baby" It was when I heard her heartbeat. Hearing her heartbeat for the first time is something I will never forget. I can't even describe the feeling I felt when I heard it. After that I couldn't wait til I was going to have my first ultrasound. Finally at 20 weeks I went for the first one. The doctor told me that my due date would probably change after I had the ultrasound, and it did. We thought I was 20 weeks but I was only 18 weeks. It was so weird getting to see her. It didn't seem real to me. I got two pictures that day. One of her arm and little hand and fingers, then another of her legs all stretched out and her little feet and toes(: Three weeks later I went in for another ultrasound so they could get all her measurements and everything, which all of them were perfect. It was funny though, she was being a pain in the butt for the ultrasound technician and kept curling up into a ball. Finally after about 30 minutes she moved. The way she looked changed so much in that little bit of time, she didn't look like a skeleton anymore. She looked like a real person inside of me. I was waiting patiently for her to tell me the gender, and when she said she was 100% sure it was a girl, I just knew it. I got two more pictures, which those ones are my favorite. It was so cute, she was sucking her thumb. Shortly after I was 20 weeks is when she started moving around all the time, and now she just never stops! The first time I actually felt her move was when I was about 16 weeks. At first I didn't know it was her moving, it was just this little fluttering feeling in my stomach like when you have butterflies. Now when she moves it feels so much different and when you look at my stomach you can see her moving. I love it(:

My moms reaction.

I think reading the book "Your Pregnancy and Newborn Journey" is going to be helpful in a way. I have read the first chapter and a lot of the information is already helpful and making me think about a lot of things. I remember when I first found out I was pregnant. I was scared but at the same time I was happy. My boyfriend seemed to be upset and nervous at first. Telling my mom for me wasn't something I was scared to do and it wasn't hard at all. The main reason was because my mom kept saying I know your pregnant and made me go to the doctor to find out for sure and also because my mom and I are really close and I can talk about anything and tell her anything. When I was leaving the doctors office, I called my mom and I said I am pregnant and all she had to say was I knew it! She was upset about the whole situation at first because I'm only seventeen and she knows what it's like to be a teen mom. She was seventeen when she had my sister. She thought that I wouldn't follow in her or my families footsteps. Every woman in my family has had a kid when they were between the ages of fifteen and nineteen. My sister being one of them. She had her first kid when she was fifteen, she got pregnant with him when she was only fourteen. I see how they have struggled with jobs because they didn't finish school and that was something my mom was most upset about. That is why I am going to New Start, so I can have an education, even if I'm not graduating on time. Now my boyfriend was so scared to tell his parents, mostly his dad. The funny thing was his dad wasn't mad at all. All the had to say was things happen for a reason and now it's time for you to get a real job and be responsible so you can take care of your kid and your girlfriend. He said he is happy he is going to be a grandpa. Reading the first chapter and the part where other young moms tell about their parents reactions, some of them were horrible to me. Some parents didn't want to talk to them, some wanted them to get abortions. I don't know how any parent could tell their kid they need to get an abortion that is just horrible!! I don't know what I would do if my mom wasn't supportive. I know that right now everything would be a lot harder to deal with if she wasn't. She knows that being hateful and not supporting me would be the wrong thing to do. I respect and appreciate her for being there for me like she is because I know some teens don't have that with their parents. Now I'm just waiting for my baby girl to be here and I can't wait til I have her in my arms.