Anyday now!

So still no baby! Today my doctor told me I was 3cm dilated and if I do not go into labor by Tuesday she is going to break my water! So if I don't have her this week she will defiantly be here next week! I'm excited and can not wait. But I'd rather just go into labor naturally, I don't want to have to have my water broke, but if that's what is gonna have to be done then I guess that's okay, because I really want her here!!!!

Waiting!

So last week when I went to the doctors I found out that I'm 2cm dilated and my cervix has softened all the way! I was excited, hoping I was going to go into labor soon. Then Tuesday I had another appointment and I'm still one 2cm dilated. I was hoping maybe, I would at least be 3! But of course not. I only have 2 weeks left til my due date, but I'm hoping I have her before my due date. I just want her out. Truth is I am really sick of being pregnant, being 9 months pregnant is not fun at all. It sucks. I keep hoping and praying every single day that I go into labor. I wanted to try to put myself in labor but most people say all the things you can do never really work. Plus my mom thinks I need to wait, and she will come when she is ready. I'm scared I'm gonna go past my due date, and I do not want that to happen at all, that would really suck! My doctor said that they will let you go up to 2 weeks past your due date before they induce you! OMG I think I would die. I'm miserable already, that would be horrible. So hopefully she isn't stubborn and she comes REAL SOON!

Soooooon.

3 1/2 more weeks! Time is going by so so slow. Hopefully I have her before my due date, I would love that. Thursday at my doctors appointment they are going to start checking if I'm dilating or not. Hopefully I am. I think she is coming real soon though. I've dropped, and last night while I was at the store I had 4 contractions in 2 hours then they stopped :( Then when I came home I lost a little bit of my mucous plug. Not all of it though.. which sucks! Hopefully I lose the rest of it in a couple days.

Just thinking.

So I can have Sophia any day now. I'm hoping soon because I'm sick of being pregnant! I am always sore and having pains. I feel fat :( I'm always tired. Pregnancy at the end is no fun. I'm hoping I go into labor in like the next 2 weeks, that would be great. My doctor says she can come anytime, I'm really hoping I don't go past my due date either. That would suck big time, I don't want to be pregnant any longer then 40 weeks! Hoping on Wednesday when I have my next doctors appointment  the doctor tells me she has dropped, I will be very excited. I just can't wait til I have her in my arms though. I hope she is cute and has a lot of dark hair. I think she is going to be a small baby also. The doctor said she is probably going to be around 6-7 pounds. I guess that isn't too small. Just hope she is as healthy as can be(: Aw I'm so excited to be a mommy.

Labor?!

I've been reading stuff on going into labor, and I'm so ready. People always talk about how painful it is and them being scared to go into labor. I think I will be fine, I mean I know its going to be painful but I'm good with pain and I can handle a lot. So I think I will be just fine(: I am going to get an epidural though. I don't think I'm going to be able to have a natural birth. I had another doctors appointment last week, the doctor said of course everything is fine and all my measurements and weight is right on point, so that's good. I only have 5 1/2 weeks until my due date!!! Aw so excited. I hope she comes at least a week early, because I want her in my arms so bad. I want to see what she looks like and I want to be a mom. These next few weeks better go by fast. Well I'm hoping they do, I'm so ready to have her.

Baby(:

My cousin had her baby a week ago, she is so cute and little! I got to see her today. Man I can't wait til I have my daughter! I hope she is that cute and little and has as much or more hair then she does. Hopefully they will be close when they are older cause they will only be about a month apart! Aw(: I'm excited. Seeing her just makes me wish I was due now!

Idk./

So I read more on breastfeeding and I think I'm still on the side of using formula. I know breast milk is better for the baby so they say but using formula is going to be a lot easier for me. With going back to school, then eventually getting a job and plus if I use formula when I need to do homework or just need someone to watch her they can feed her when she is hungry. Using a breast pump would be a lot of work also. I just feel like with all the things I need to do and get done after I have her, using formula would be best. I'm always going to use the bottles with the bags in them. They say they are the best kind because you can push all the air out before feeding them so you don't give the baby gas. I know people are going to think I'm doing the wrong thing for not breastfeeding but oh well. Its my baby and my choice. So I can care less what anyone else has to say.